Life Ordered Me.

It all started with me as a fetus

All covered with blood and some mucus

I was held on mother’s hands

Still fresh from her insides

I wake up to this world, crying

Because life ordered me to do so

 

I was a toddler

I learned to play

These childish games

Laughter’s worth everything, not to be repaid

I prance above the clouds, happy

Because life ordered me to do so

 

First day of high school

They say be the most presentable

Have nice friends and a good amount of fun

For this will never pass again in the long run

Times change

Hormones build up

Rushing through my body with rage

That leads me with all these crap

I did what early adults does, enjoying

Because life ordered me to do so

 

I’m about to cross the bridge

My life that automatically skyrocketed up, up above

Being ordered

To what life wants me to

But I know for sure

I do not have to follow life

For being free is not by force

And not by order of which is which

How you connect yours to what others did

I, want to get rid

I, don’t want my life for me to lead

I… want to grow my own seed in my own process

I’m not the river that flows with the rushes

I’m not the… sky that des the same thing over and over

THIS IS NOT A LAW

That it’s an imperative for you to follow

THIS IS NOT AN OBLIGATION

That as I cross that adulthood bridge I will do what is typical

I MAKE MY LIFE

I AM NOT WHAT LIFE ORDERED ME

 

I don’t want to be this adult who gets to marriage because “life ordered me”

I don’t want to die with white strands waiting to fall off my skin

I don’t want to be in this same generic coffin, or such life shit

I DON’T WANT TO BE

What my life ordered me

I want this to stop

Like how this poem ends.


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