It all started with me as a fetus
All covered with blood and some mucus
I was held on mother’s hands
Still fresh from her insides
I wake up to this world, crying
Because life ordered me to do so
I was a toddler
I learned to play
These childish games
Laughter’s worth everything, not to be repaid
I prance above the clouds, happy
Because life ordered me to do so
First day of high school
They say be the most presentable
Have nice friends and a good amount of fun
For this will never pass again in the long run
Times change
Hormones build up
Rushing through my body with rage
That leads me with all these crap
I did what early adults does, enjoying
Because life ordered me to do so
I’m about to cross the bridge
My life that automatically skyrocketed up, up above
Being ordered
To what life wants me to
But I know for sure
I do not have to follow life
For being free is not by force
And not by order of which is which
How you connect yours to what others did
I, want to get rid
I, don’t want my life for me to lead
I… want to grow my own seed in my own process
I’m not the river that flows with the rushes
I’m not the… sky that des the same thing over and over
THIS IS NOT A LAW
That it’s an imperative for you to follow
THIS IS NOT AN OBLIGATION
That as I cross that adulthood bridge I will do what is typical
I MAKE MY LIFE
I AM NOT WHAT LIFE ORDERED ME
I don’t want to be this adult who gets to marriage because “life ordered me”
I don’t want to die with white strands waiting to fall off my skin
I don’t want to be in this same generic coffin, or such life shit
I DON’T WANT TO BE
What my life ordered me
I want this to stop
Like how this poem ends.
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